I love you all, you wonderful, wonderful people. I really do. <3
As those of you who follow my journal know, I've posted a few times now about the experimental surgery I will be having (this coming THURSDAY, O_o) to attempt to halt the degeneration of my corneas due to the eye disease keratoconus. I've also posted about the fact that due to the experimental nature of this treatment, insurance won't cover it, and I am in real financial difficulty. Some of you, my wonderful friends, have already offered to help with this, and as I responded individually, I really am SO touched by that, but wasn't sure if I should accept your offers of help.
However, I've talked at length about the whole situation (not for the first time) over these last few days with my good friend
And then the wonderful
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As far as the upcoming surgery itself goes - I've just picked up the necessary medications that I will need both before and during/after the surgery, and have arranged for my sister to pick me up at the end (she has a small child, so I don't want her to have to wait through the whole 2-3 hours or more that it will take) and take me home. I'm making sure I've got things put away and have some food in the apartment (right now if you opened the door to the refrigerator all you'd see is some very cold crickets trying to indicate how cavernously empty it is, seriously) so that for the weekend of my recovery, I won't have to go out. I don't actually know exactly what state I'll be in afterwards. I've been told there's some pain (apparently not during, due to the medications, but afterwards, at least on the first day or so) and that I'll basically be at home resting all day afterwards (I assume they will give me more specific directions before the procedure.) And I know that in some cases it does things to your vision for a bit right afterwards. So I don't know when I'll be able to let people know how it went, but I DO have the Voice Post function keyed into my phone, so hopefully I'll at least be able to do that. Or call Cleo. I will certainly keep people posted.
I can't believe things happened so quickly in terms of going from "will I need to have something done" to "you're going to go have the procedure this week." I'm...both calm and nervous at the same time. But mostly, grateful that there's something, even in trial stages, that can be done, and feeling very unworthy but grateful to everyone who's donated to help me out thus far, and am actually looking forward with hope to a time in the near future when seeing won't be quite so painful.
And I don't even know what else to say except thank you again.
xo
ETA of Tuesday
Just a little update to say more thanks for the help people have continued to send. It is like a stone being slowly lifted off my chest to feel even a bit of the impending debt disappearing. Many thanks.
Tags: health, keratoconus, serious things
Trixie feels: touched